Help how to tell a girl you like her? Please read married for 10 years?

in i was a forced marrige for 10 years her name is ulga in we divorce kinda like her we have 2 kids in she force me to have a vasectomy now i dont know in i want buck ya know but I dont know idk if break up or call we somtime go in buck wen we in same ya kno. in flavor was bannana she somtime push me for nada in dis mean she like me or wat idk . she make me leave my bass name sue to in yet somtime she mess wit guy like somtime i kno kno even sometime she sit on my cake n waste it n no lemme wash wat do guys ? somtimes she tell me i neva be Navy SEAL's idk n my friend dale talk but syrup of maple in front of her muther wat do idk HELP!!!!